Saturday, July 30, 2005 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
Oh gosh~! what happened to me 2day ? hmmx.. i felt emotional brokedown.... ehhh~! how m i goin to describe the situation that had happens 2day.. hmmx.. Actually 2day the FnN students have the CA2 paper after sch.. but we went to meet her, the test had postpone to next week thursday... so suddenly she asked us to stay back to do project without informing us before hand.. so at the end , i do not bring materials for the project work, but the rest of the 2 students brought as they did not packed their back since yesterday got FnN lessons... so i m the only one that nv bring the diskette and notes.. so surely i got scolding by the stupid old hack MS JOAN NG.. i told her that i will go back home to take the diskette and everything.. but she doesnt allow me to do.. n keep on scolding me for that the whole 3 hours in the com lab.. So unreasonable of her... Argh~! den for the past 2 weeks when we are doin our part B of the project , she seems to b unwilling to help me and didnt help me much in the project, she always help the rest of the students first n leave me to the last... den always blame me for being slow and problematic, aiyox.. the last one to check my project confrimed late la.. JOAN NG u this stupid one.. i felt the unfair treatment, biaes and the harsh words that she used had deeply hard me.. i didnt argue back to her.. as i remembered that my mum told me to control my temper as students will alway lose out when arguing with teachers.. so i kept quiet.. but she kept on provoting me.. but i still kept controlling my temper so i kept drinking water and look elsewhere to cool myself down before my temper blast out... i really v. pissed off of her idoit attitude problem.. suddenly, when i met ms.muni she know that i m v. pissed off as my facial expression shows v.clearly so she asked me accompany her to see the talent quest held in the school hall... but when Ms.muni ask me what happen jus now ? and when i saw the crowd at the same time, i suddenly emotion brokedown i sit at one corner n my tears kept flowing down without my control n i told ms.muni what i had problems i had faced and the pressurize i m having now... she console me.. but after crying , my eyes were red and swollen so on the way back i met lay cheng, she noticed that i had cried n ask me what had happened so i told her lor.. so also console me and gave me encouragement to hold on.. really need to thanks both of them as i felt much better... but whenever i think back of it.. i still felt v.sad and tears still will rolled down.. as i also felt pressurized and stress with my studies and results... Sobx... But i felt that lay cheng said a very meaning words is that " PROVES TO THEM YOU CAN DO IT, N TRY UR BEST TO DO" this makes me to think more positive.. Thanks gal... n told my hubby abt it too.. he tried to make me happy by teasing me.. but suddenly my tears start to roll down again ... aiyox.. duno y? But nvm from 2day onwards i m goin to try my best to prove all the stupid old hack that i m not a weaklings... u r all wrong...