Saturday, July 23, 2005 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
i m totally feeling terrible sad and disappointed with myself. How come i unable to score gd results for my mid year examination and any of my class test. I m that stupid~!? i just dont know what is the problem with me about my studies.. did i study the wrong methods or things ? haix.. i felt disappointed with myself when i got such a gd and experience math teacher to teach me but i felt that i still failed my math test. I really felt v. angry of myself and sorry for the math teacher and parent for their effort and money, becos i didnt produce gd results for them. My mid yr results is just a border line results, oh gosh~! what m i goin to do? i really feel vv. extremely scared becos i cant b goin on like this..
So i had began to study harder den last yr, by finding my best buddy for help in my science subjects and math tuition teacher to brush up my math. hmmx.. i can feel that i could understand the subject better that last time. i m on the progressing mode frm the bottom of the ground heading towards the top of the peak. i think i do not really put in enough effort, as i m a slow learner that needed to b push and force to studies sometimes. So i decided after my dismissal at 5pm or later.. plus after i chat with my hubby, bathing and dinner at about 7pm.. i will start to study until late at nite till 11.30 for school days,3am or later for friday,12 plus for saturday and 11am for sunday. without watching any show except the news and the superstar programme and goin online except updating my blogs and finished up my project work. This time i m very serious for what i had said and decided because i really v.determine wanted to show great improve for most of my Core subjects. i had felt the great disapointment in my whole life and i dont want it to happen anymore without any regrets.