Tuesday, August 16, 2005 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
Actually i had been thinking of this question for the past 1 yrs about my relationship destination... about my previous memoriesi just do not know why my previous ex was still in my mind ? after the breakup with him 2 yrs ago, i had decided to become frens with him, but it took sometime for him to accept it.. after that we had become frens n would sms each other when we r free... during the meet up during the june 2005,i jus wanna to reassured my feelings for him... it was such a great outing n we really enjoyed ourself that day... But after that day onwards everything had changed, he didnt reply any of my msgs... is that Avoiding ? why ? he even forgot my bday n didnt even send greeting msg to me.. haix.. i dont know why i would mind about every bits and pieces of the thing he do... Do i still loved ? does he still have feelings for me? den why must he seems like avoiding me ? that is the question that i m asking myself..... my present sweetheart...Both of us met each other just like the fairtales in the stories... i felt that both of us have a v.special connection within us.. this kind of feelings is just like we are made for each other.. we had alot of things in common and we do understand each other v.well.. he have the qualities of my charming prince i had been looking for and dream of... i felt so suprised that i could find him, although i felt that i m just a normal lookng gal compared to the rest of the gals out there.... this hubby of mine, truthly can say that he adote and love me v.much... he will give in to me no matter how unreasonable i m.. and this is our longest relationship we had ever had compared to the past.... this is the first guy that had ever planned for our future..that y i had put alot for this relationship compared to the rest.... i m willing to wait for him to come back from nz although i had waited v.long le.. aiyox.. but love you , hubby..
i know beyond is beyond.. i should look forward n cherished the present one.. and i know that my hubby is the right person for me... that i should truthly love him without any 2nd thought... but i just dont know how to get rid of the feelings n thought for my previous one, S------....i m trying to sort my compllicated feelings in me.. becos i do not wanna to make the wrong decision n regret for life..