Friday, January 06, 2006 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
Hmmx..?? Should i sing the song " All by myself" ...? i m feeling terrible sad and unbearable for pending his arrival back.. Although i had awaited for him for 1 yr 6 months since last time to now.. at first he promised me to come back this july ... for my disappointment, few days back he told me that he will back by Oct becos his operation will b during july n needs time to recover after the operation... i felt my heart suddenly harden n the colours in me were starting to fade away.... Is not that i don luv him... dont mistaken...my love for him is still as strong as b4, i also want him to recover n get well as soon as possible.. but jus that i was totally disappointed becos i was looking forward to july for his arrival... but he told me this..... " OCT"... my heart suddenly broken into pieces...u all should know when promised were broken is the saddess thing to feel ... this had trouble me since he told me that moment... haix.. Sobx...
In my mind, i had been thinking of another matter is that.. shld i give others a chance? m i able to wait that long? will my heart be moved by others i met in the future? so many qns had crowded in my mind... But i don wish that i would do all this when he is nt around... i jus feel emptyness in me.. a lonely soul that need a guardian to guide me through my darkness... n bring me light again...
But i will let faith takes it nature, if faith had planned that i will meet others in my life . i also cant stop it.. i wont stop any ppl that want to know me better....Friends are zlways welcome...