Monday, June 18, 2007 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
Hmmx.. i think by nw quite afew of my close frens n cousins would have know that jason is nt comin back on 17 june.. Due to his grandma admitted to ICU at NZ due to heart attack. i seems to b kinda serious condition as the grandma is 78yrs old.. hmmx.. i had been quite sad for the past 1 n 1/2 day.. my reaction such as Stoned at one position, staring in the air, no expression and totally blank with my heart feeling heavy. Cant really accept the fact that he is nt comin back on 17 june. Althought i did nt feel that anxious to that extreme for the past few weeks ago.. but i m looking forward to his arrival.. But at the end, he could nt come back.. = ( sob sobx.. but after making a fuss out of it.. i finally calmed down.. is nt that i do nt allow him to stay for the sake of his grandma.. is jus that i cant bear to accept the fact that he is nt comin back.. i have been controlling my EMO for quite sometime.. until i burst out in tears during the evening call with jason. becos i could nt blamed anyone for this thing to happen.. but jus had to accept it.
Anyway, in the end i decided to wait n give him afew weeks allowance to b with his grandma to ensure everything is alright. As this ah ma adote jason alot.. Hope he could come back a week b4 our 3 yrs anniversary. MUST hor.. or else i will b EMO againx... PRAY hard..