Thursday, July 12, 2007 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
SOB sob SOBx....... He is nt back again.. i mean is "AGAIN" ... WTF... sorry guys i nt meant to use this words but long time once ok.. i duno whether to believe him anot..do u really sprain ur leg mah ? or u really don want to come back ? so many things went through my mind.. n i duno how to face to those that know u r comin back.. its the 2nd time le.. i went to throw all the things tat i want to give at my living room, i jus duno how to face all those things that is in my room... u had cause such a GREAT disappointment n lost of trust le.. we had plan so many activities this weekend but all had to be cancel.. i had waited so so so so long le.. WHy still like that ?~! do u really know how i feel mah ? do u ever understand mah ? its like i m so anxious for the past few days n unable to slp well .. but is like u putting me at a high top out of sudden fall right down to the ground.. do u know how much it hurts n the impact how great it is ????? i had been thinking alot.. if u really want to cheat me why u can spend so much time calling oversea call.. why do u have to plan so much thing the day b4.. i don want to think that u r bluffing me, i really dont want.. but why always so last min thing would happen.. WHY? is it " you yuan wu fen" haix.. out of sudden i wanted to b singlehood, nt to get hurt or disappointment. i would like to believe u but i jus could nt get the courage to do so.. nw even my parents felt sth nt right ask me to nt to take it so serious in this relationship.. HoW~! ? should i give u one more chances or nt.. should i ever pin such a high hope on u?