Tuesday, December 30, 2008 Y
You r my special one, i Luv
Haix..........hmmmmz...
its the worst Semester i ever had in my whole 3 yrs of poly life....
Just got back my term test results.. 1 subject failed by 4mrks , 1 subject jus passed by 8marks..n waiting to know 1 more subject result this fri..
i got to know that my frens J n S take me as their Aim to score good results..
Yes, they did score much more better den me for this semester..they wana to compete with me siax.. after getting results, they will keep yaya-ing infront me n keep rubbing the pain into my wound..
Do u know i feel ?
i feel the anger n disappointment inside n i must not show it infront them..
dont u know its so damn terrible deep in my heart...
i can feel the threaten + Stress + competitive + Loss of confidence + Aimless now..
make me feel v.extremely sad..
Such a failure..
i nv feel this kind of impact b4...
ERmx.. i feel that i lack of motivation in studying for this semester.. Ever since after the SIP attachment in Yr.3.1.... Lost the Touch of the study mood..
HOW how HOw ????
After getting my term test results, quiz , lab test....
ITs like having a Tight SLAP on my face~! the pain that is unbearable tat is unable to describe..
I need to wake up..
I need to Bring back my motivation
I need to show THEM tat i m nt tat easily defeated.. don b so proud manx..
I will show them what i m capable of .. I will bring back the " Old " joyce back..
Out of sudden, i feel that being kind to share the knowledge u have is such a stupid thing to do.. Whereby the people jus acting stupid to score better den you.. Must be selfish now n absorb from them nw.. by nt sharing wad i know..
i swear that frm nw to exam or quiz.. i will study like nobody business n dont tell them tat i m doin tat.. i gonna force myself to study 2hours everyday n stayup late at night on fri n sat.. jus the same as the previous semester..